Sloan has the necessity to live with Asa, an alcoholic person who parties everyday, because she has nowhere to go.
I have to keep up appearances by acting like I still owe my life to Asa, when in reality, I feel like he’s ruining it. Don’t get me wrong, I do love him.
I love who he could be someday, but I’m also not naïve. (P. 17)
This could be interpreted in different ways for a lot of people and still hold the meaning of having to pretend someone or something is doing what is the best for you when you’re suffering because of that.