I\u2019ve been thinking a lot about how decisions used to feel when I was younger. Back then, everything seemed so simple. Choosing whether to do homework before or after playing soccer at the condominium streets felt like a big decision, but in a light way, like nothing could really go wrong or affect me that bad. I honestly thought I could do everything, and somehow it would all just work out.<\/p>\n
I still decide when to study, when to go out with friends, or when to sit down and fix something I procrastinated to do for a long time. Even though those decisions haven\u2019t completely changed, they feel different now. On the surface, it\u2019s basically the same type of choice, but it just doesn\u2019t feel the same anymore, there\u2019s quite of a pressure, like every choice could matter more than I think, and knowing it might actually affect something later.<\/p>\n
When I was little, choosing something \u201cwrong\u201d didn\u2019t really mean much. It was easy to move on. Now I just notice that even those small things from the past don\u2019t really disappear, they kind of stay with you and show up later in ways you don\u2019t expect. It\u2019s not one huge mistake, it\u2019s a bunch of little ones you didn\u2019t really think about at the time.<\/p>\n
I guess what\u2019s really changed isn\u2019t the decisions themselves. The experiences are still kind of the same, but the intensity is completely different. There\u2019s more responsibility, more pressure, and way less certainty.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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