Nothing More Than a Hazara

In The Kite Runner, by Khaled Hosseini, Amir is peering down an ally-way to his best friend Hassan who is being sexually abused by an older boy named Assef. He has a decision to make, either stand up for Hassan, who had always stood up for him, or run. Amir chose to run, mainly because he was afraid of what would happen to him. While he ran he thought if he had done the right thing, and for the first time in his life, he thought of Hassan as a Hazara and nothing more. After about fifteen minutes he forced himself to walk back to where he had deserted his friend. Amir spotted Hassan walking away from the ally and ran towards him, they met underneath a decaying birch tree. In Hassan’s hands was the blue kite Amir had cut down earlier that day with his kite to win the kite-fighting tournament. Amir then said the following to Hassan with immense difficulty because it was all but a lie to cover up the truth…

“Where were you? I looked for you.” (p. 83)

I feel that this quote is significant not because Amir uttered a lie to Hassan, but because he still chose to talk to Hassan after what had happened. Even though he had left his friend to the hands of god, Amir felt guilt for his cowardice. But he did not apologize by saying sorry, instead, he acted as if nothing had happened. Was this a decision that Amir thought to be the best to stay friends with Hassan or was it for another reason? To hide what he saw, what he did, and what he will never be able to forget.