IRJE4

The book I am reading is “All for You” by Louise Jensen. Let me talk about the scenes of the mother Lucy’s feelings. These are sentences after Lucy lost everything that she had.

I’m alone.

I’m alone.

I’m alone.

A wife without a husband. A mother without any children.

Help me.

I cannot cope with this. I just… can’t.

The flowers. The white car. Connor. Kieron. Aidan.

Hailey.

I’m so so sorry for the things I did, for the things I didn’t do.

I hate you, Connor had screamed.

I hate me too.

The smell from the flowers fills my nostrils, I crawl down the hallway from them.

A spinning top of thoughts, whirring faster and faster until I’m dizzy.

Missing.

Taken.

Funerals.

Death.

Missing.

Taken.

Funerals.

Death. (p.208)

In this quote, we can see that Lucy is blaming herself and she is terribly upset.  The author repeated “I’m alone” three times. I can say these are messages for each three Connor, Kieron and Aiden. The sentences “A wife without a husband. A mother without any children.” can break our images of wife and mother. Lucy is talking to herself. We can find the feelings like sadness, regrets and despair. And the worlds “missing” “taken” “funerals” “death” express how it ruined her life. Though this book seems to be only mystery, it shows us some feelings that we do not show to others.

2022 FIFA WORLD CUP

I have never played soccer in my life and I don’t know the rule neither. I heard that we had world cup this week from my friend who likes soccer very much. At that time, I just didn’t care about it because I’m not  into it. However, I checked the result of the game Japan versus Germany with just curious. There was an unbelievable result that Japan won against Germany. Everyone was surprised at this as well as me. On tiktok, everyone was talking about Japanese soccer cartoon called “blue lock” after this news broke because one of the member of soccer team in Japan played similar to the character of blue lock. This cartoon is one of my favorite Japanese cartoons so I was so glad that blue lock became popular in the world. Though I’ve never been interested in the actual game before, I paid money for watching World Cup yesterday. I hope that Japan can prove that the game against Germany was not a fluke by winning against Spain.

About my weekly day

I have nothing special to do after school. I have three ASAs, on Monday I have hip hop and she united, on Tuesday and Thursday I have golf. On other days, I take a nap, do my homework, shower, do exercise to lose my weight and go to bed. I always call my friends or watch anime on Netflix when I have nothing to do. I consult and advise to my friends because many of them are studying abroad now. It is little hard for us to live without our parents, so we need to help each other. After I call with my friends, I feel chill and reassured. However, I think I need to change my lifestyle because I sometimes go to bed really late because of the jet lug and my screen time of snapchat exceeded two hours a day last week. So I turned off the notification of it. I hope it works.

IRJE3 “All For You”

I want talk about how the author handle readers’ mind. I sometimes feel like it plays into the author’s hands when I read this book. It means he is really good at expressing situations and feelings.

The figure is still there.

Waiting.

For what?

For who?

Shivers snake down Connor’s spine as he pushes into his hallway then locks the door behind him.

Home.

But even here he doesn’t feel safe.

Since Tyler vanished nowhere feels safe.

He put the sentence “Home” before he wrote Connor’s feelings. This word works like an exclamation by putting only the word. What do we imagine when we hear the word “home”? Probably, family, relief and positive words. However, the atmosphere is radically changed by this next sentence. There is no family in his house. These is no relief in his house. The air is only stagnant and sinking. No lights and no hope. This book uses these techniques to make my emotions going up and down violently. The tension is always so great that it makes us impossible to take our eyes off from each sentence.

 

IRJE: All for You

The book which I reading is “All For You” by Louise Jensen. The family has Kieron who has a terrible disease. This makes the family apart gradually. Mysterious incidents continued to occur around this family. First of all, I love descriptions of conditions and situations in this book. The author skillfully used new lines, inversion and various fonts to create tension and thrill for the reader.

I want to ask who put it there but I’m desperate for a rational explanation can hold tightly against my chest.

Someone has been watching me.

A gift from a cat , most likely, Aiden says.

But we don’t have a cat. And neither do any of our neighbours.

These are sentences after the family found the death birds in front of their house. Only this sentence “Someone has been watching me” is in a different font from the others, which gives me a sense of meaning. Something terrifying. It is as if it’s only part of the beginning. I felt it was interesting not focus on only story but also on author’s techniques.

 

What is fair

Does being fair mean treating everyone exactly the same? (Explain why / why not.)

We often use the words “fair” or “ unfair”. However, what is fair?. In my opinion, the answer of this question is yes. Some people say that it depends on the situations, we should deal flexibly. But there is no ways to listen to everyone’s request. So it’s the better way to treat everyone same but we need to remind it is not the best way. I learned the differences between fair and equality in Japan. It said fair is to get what they need in order to be successful and equality is to get everybody same thing. In other words, fair is focused on the result and equality is focused on the process. It makes sense but I think they should be the same thing. For example, there are three people who are watching the soccer game. And there is the wall. So one of them can’t see the game because he is not enough tall and he is still a child. Should we give the box only for him or all of them? That is the point. But, everyone has childhood. It seems fair for me because I believe that people grow stronger through challenges. Though people in the society should be who give him a box, the society should not be like that.Do women get some handicaps because just they are women? It should not be. It’s the same things. There is no discriminations but also no compassions. If you need something, you should get by yourself. At least the society should be.

“They shall not glow old”

“They shall not grow old” gave me bigger influence than “Soldier’s Home” and “All Quiet on the Western front” because it was more realistic. There were clips of dead people and we could hear real think of soldiers and the cruel sounds of the war. And the characters in “They shall not grow old” have various backgrounds. Each soldier recounted their experiences with trying not to think about it deeply. That made me feel the war nearly more. I found that these three had same end that all soldiers lost the meaning of life and there was nothing left after the war. And they couldn’t live like us, like normal lives. I thought this would lead this title ”They shall not grow old”. They couldn’t glow old because they lost reason to live so it means they didn’t glow old, only time had passed. I learned that though the soldiers were fighting in different side, they thought same thing and they were wondering why they were fighting each other. That’s the most interesting point.

 

 

IRJE: Tuesdays with Morrie

The book which I’m reading is “ Tuesdays with Morrie” by Mitch Albom. This book has two characters Mitch and Morrie. Morrie was a teacher of Mitch’s university. After he graduated and became a journalist, he lost the meaning of life. So he started visiting Morrie every Tuesday to talk about various aspects of life or listen to his thoughts. Though Morrie left a lot of famous quotes, my favorite one is not his words.

After a week of this, I picked up the phone and dialed Morrie’s number. Connie brought him to the phone.
“You’re coming to visit me,” he said, less a question than a statement.
Well. Could I?
“How about Tuesday?”
Tuesday would be good, I said. Tuesday would be
fine.

I want to focus on the last two sentences because I think these sentences express the whole story. Tuesdays are the special days for them. The classes he took were on Tuesdays and the days they talked each other were Tuesdays. That’s why they chose Tuesdays to meet. At that time Mitch couldn’t find the happiness of life. And these sentences seem that he tried to talk himself. And we can find his Hopes and expectations in these sentences. No more Tuesdays that used to be boring. This moment is the most happiest moment for him but also sad memory because it lasted only 14 times. I can think about these sentences in many aspects because I know the end. Yes. The day Morrie died was also Tuesday like an irony.

Soldier’s Home

Krebs and Paul went to the war during their youth. They both were changed the way of seeing the things because of the war. Krebs don’t want to live with any consequences. It means he couldn’t see the value in any things. Paul also lost the meaning of life. He said “and even if these scenes of our youth were given back to us we would hardly know what to do. They were too young to give their time to the war. They were taken the most important time of the life. The similarities between Krebs and Paul show that war is something that changes not only time, but everything about their lives afterwards. The two were enemies, but the outcome for those who went to war was the same.

On the other hand, the have differences. Though Paul died during the war, Krebs survived from the war. So, Krebs has an after story of his  life. I feel he had harder life than Paul because he lived. After he went back his home, he couldn’t behave as same as before. He needed to lie in order to be a hero. His mother tried to make him work and spend normal life. However, these things put too much pressure on him. When his mother talked about his aim for life to him, he said nothing and looked at the bacon fat hardening on his plate instead seeing his mother.(p6)

I think this is the experience and new pain that Paul didn’t have because of his dead. Sometimes it seems the death is the end and the most sadness thing but sometimes it’s better option than live. Krebs got life and lost happiness, Paul got death and lost suffering. That’s the biggest difference that they got and lost after life.

I can’t choose which life is better but one thing I can say about their life is the war destroy everything and leave only unhappy life after it.

Personal Response

This book gave me new awareness and feelings. I thought these questions in my own way through this book.{Focus on the “big questions” raised by the text: Who are we (identity)? Where are we (environment & society)? What are we doing and what should we be doing?}

I focused on at the end of the story mainly. It says “And men will not understand us-for the generation that grew up before us, though it has passed these years with us already had a home and a calling; now it will return to its old occupations, and the war will be forgotten and the generation that has grown up after us will be strange to us and push us aside. We will be superfluous even to ourselves, we will grow older, a few will adapt themselves, some others will merely submit, and most will be bewildered;-the years will pass by and in the end we shall fall into ruin”. I found we are “that” generation. We pushed them out and made the new world without reminding them. Though we are in the same place where they used to be, it’s all different situation and environment that we have. And Paul also says that “All that meets me, all that floods over me are but feelings—greed of life, love of home, yearning for the blood, intoxication of deliverance. But no aims. Now if we go back we will be weary, broken, burnt out, root-less, and without hope. We will not be able to find our way anymore.” This means people who survived from the war have nothing left. There’re no reasons to live. They just live and repeat same days without no aims or hopes. But we have aims and hopes. And I think they should have same things as well. Their meaning of life should be telling how cruel the war was. Paul and others are only people who can tell the truth of the war.

I wondered why we do the war. Humans are standing at the top of food chain. We don’t have to care about being haunted. Then why do we have to fight amongst our own species? That’s the ugliness of humans. The war plunders everything. There is no turning back. I feel a keen sense of sympathy with Paul because they have nothing after the war. What frustrates me is that no matter how much I read, there is a limit to my understanding of their suffering as they say. However, we need to keep reading and learning in order to tell to future generation. I think it’s a good opportunity to know about World War 1. I could learn what we couldn’t learn by only taking history classes for example situation at that time or feelings of someone fought in the war. From now on, I need to know who I am that means we are humans that don’t have to fight each other and clarify what we should do that means to try not to repeat same mistakes.